Why Am I Doing This?

James Titchener / @mistertitchener

Why am I writing a blog? Why bother sharing the transparent details of my life? And most importantly—WHO CARES?

I can’t say for sure why I now feel motivated to do this, but I have some ideas.

The obvious one is attention. We all think we’re more important than the next guy or gal. We’ve been programmed this way. As much as I’d like to say I have some grandiose motivations for inspiring the world with words, and you best believe I do, I would 100% be lying if I said that a little attention doesn’t feel good.

But how about those grandiose motivations?

I think making an impact with writing typically requires two things: 1) knowing something useful to share and 2) having a platform to share it.

I’m fully aware of the fact that I haven’t done jack and I don’t know shit. As such, nobody knows who the fuck I am and I sure as shit don’t know anything worth sharing—not yet.

So, honestly, this is mostly just a place for me to play. I see Mostly Ignorant as a sandbox for experimenting with my writing and for hashing out my new (and likely bad) ideas.

I do, however, think I have something unique to offer—my story.

In early 2016, my mother went missing without a trace.

After two weeks of tireless searching, pieces of her severed body were found in the San Francisco Bay. That same night, my father drove onto the Bay Bridge, parked his car in the middle of the road, and jumped off the edge to meet my mother in the very same water where her body rested.

We’d find out in the coming days that my dad had killed my mom and tried to get away with it.

I was 22 when this all happened. I’m 25 now, and I’m ecstatic to say that I’ve come a long way from the dark place that this tragedy took me.  

As such, part of what I want to do with this blog is to not only share an honest and detailed account of my parent’s deaths but reflect upon how the experience has radically changed my take on humanity and the game of life.

One thing that I’ve taken away is that life is way too short to be anything but yourself.

So, I can promise you that anything you read here will be my genuine and honest account and opinion. Being transparent is a new look for me, so I hope you can laugh along with me as I inevitably make some mistakes in the process.

Stay tuned.

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